Seeds of Clarity
Not long ago, I was talking with someone I met online.
We talked about work,
what I want to do,
what would make me feel fulfilled,
what kind of life I imagined for myself.
And then she asked me,
“What do you really want?”
Such a simple question, yet hearing it stopped me completely.
I tried to answer, jumping between ideas, dreams, and possibilities, but never really touching the truth.
She smiled softly and said,
“You can talk about everything around it, but you can’t answer it directly, can you?”
And she was right.
That comment hit harder than I expected.
It made me wonder why such a simple question felt so impossible to answer.
Since that conversation, her words have echoed in my head.
They follow me into quiet moments and into nights when my thoughts get too loud.
And slowly, I’ve started to realise something.
I often struggle to answer myself honestly.
Sometimes I think I’m being truthful,
but deep down it doesn’t feel right.
Like I’m saying what sounds right, not what’s real.
Maybe it’s because I spent so long trying to be who I thought I should be that I forgot how to just be myself.
When My Mind Changes Shape
It’s exhausting trying to figure out who you are
when your own mind keeps changing.
Some days I feel sure and full of direction.
The next day, everything shifts.
My feelings, my focus, and my dreams.
ADHD makes it hard to hold on to one version of myself.
The moment I begin to understand who I am,
something inside me moves again.
It’s confusing, wanting everything,
yet never knowing what truly feels right.
When I Finally Understood
I thought that once my thoughts started to take shape,
things would become clearer.
Instead, I found more questions.
I have always felt things deeply.
Joy that almost explodes out of me,
and sadness that feels endless.
When I’m passionate, I throw myself into everything until I forget to breathe,
and then I burn out.
For so long, I thought I was too much.
Too emotional.
Too inconsistent.
Too sensitive.
But that question, What do you really want?, made me look closer.
And I realised something important:
Most of what I’ve been fighting isn’t just me.
It’s my ADHD.
Understanding why I am this way led me somewhere unexpected,
toward compassion, not frustration.
It made me realise that I have never really been lost.
I have just been learning to listen differently.
Learning to Listen to Myself
Suddenly, things started to make sense.
The noise in my head.
The endless overthinking.
The bursts of energy and the crashes that follow.
The way I can care so deeply one day
and feel empty the next.
It’s not weakness or failure.
It’s just a different kind of wiring,
one that burns bright and fades fast.
For the first time, I don’t feel broken.
I feel human.
Still misunderstood sometimes,
still learning,
but more aware than before.
Finding Balance in the Extremes
When I’m happy, I could explode with light.
When I’m sad, the world goes quiet.
There’s no middle.
Just everything all at once.
But maybe that’s okay.
Maybe I don’t need all the answers right now.
Perhaps honesty begins with admitting
that I do not always know.
The Seed That Changed Everything
Thoughts shape everything.
They become feelings,
and those feelings shape our choices,
which slowly build who we are.
If the mind is a garden,
every thought is a seed.
Some grow wild.
Some fade.
And some take root so deeply
we forget they started as thoughts at all.
So maybe growth isn’t about changing who you are.
Maybe it’s about noticing which thoughts you keep watering
and finally choosing the ones that make you feel alive.
And somewhere between the noise and the quiet,
between the questions I could not answer
and the ones I was afraid to ask,
I realised that clarity doesn’t always arrive loudly.
Sometimes it begins as a small shift,
a softer truth,
a seed turning itself toward the light
long before we notice it.
A quiet reminder
that even the unseen parts of us
are still growing.
Yours truly,
TankeHagen♡
“A garden for the truths that grow softly into clarity.”
Your Voice in This Garden🌸
When a seed of clarity begins to form in you, a gentle insight, a shift in perspective, or a moment where something finally makes sense.
You are warmly welcome here.
Your words do not need to be perfect. Just write what feels true in this moment.
If something in this post helped you see yourself more clearly, quieted some confusion, or gave you a new way to understand your own thoughts, I would love to hear your reflections in the comments.
This garden grows through the clarity we discover together🌱